Graduation Post Ya'll

 I know that I have to write a Graduation Post. I mean this is what I do,right? I'm often moving so fast through an experience that the only chance I have to be sentimental is if I write about it. Especially now, when my mind is everywhere. I feel like I should at least write to make sense of it. I can't even determine what feelings I have because they're so everywhere. Because of this, I'm a little afraid, I guess, because people are sending me off, saying goodbyes, and expecting me to be sentimental. I don't know if I can be sentimental on the outside right now. I emote in my own way. I'll be sentimental in a journal entry, I'll cry when I'm alone, but I most certainly do feel the change despite my stoic persona at times. With help of a little acting experience, I'm able to express hard to handle emotions a little better; but the truth is, I'm still an introvert. I still find it hard to express feelings. What I'm afraid of, I guess, is that my loved ones will feel unloved through my lack of ability to express. I'm afraid that they'll mistake my struggle to find words or order to my emotions for apathy in the situation. To those people who may feel that way, it is beyond the truth. You are the ones responsible for what I am today. You shaped my ideas and opinions. You taught me how to make relationships. You provided for my needs, because you believed (believe) in the process God has for me. How do I react to that? How do I express that when I'm face to face with people? I'm imaginative, and I'm always in love with a good story. Maybe I'm just a dreamer, but I'm always so captivated by the fact that God places people in our lives and he shapes our story. If you are in my life you are in it because God has placed you there and it was not by mistake. Isn't God's sovereignty amazing? So if you don't see it, you are important people in my life and you are loved.

-Abigail